feeling down =(

don't know why but somehow i feel down right now . maybe because of tomorrow . i just i don't know not in the mood for anything T.T .. got bio tuision tomorrow im kinda looking forward to that we are learning about kidney and all but after that have tennise , kinda malas la cause the whole day out all the way to kl then after that come back to pj . i rather stay at my aunt's place then to go back cause i find peace there and i can do a lot of stuff there . no noise from my siblings , don't have to do housework is like free from everything , free from distraction ..

haiz , what am i to do . i just feel like after tuision just go back rest , play piano and have my piano class you know . i realy miss piano , i miss playing new songs and i miss kena scolding by my piano teacher or miss my pinao teacher playing or showing me new songs T.T . its like part of me you know . like i don't know i think music lives in my soul . i just get facinated over piano or feel bestowed over people who can really piano for example like my friend Pik Kei , My piano teacher , my cousins . O gosh i wish someday i could be like them you know . Play well and i really enjoy playing piano . Just now after dinner play so syok , so long never play T.T .. finally i find my peace with my darling piano . its part of me . part of my world and my song .

i just painted my nails baby blue too =) . well but that still din't cheer me up . maybe because of exams or trials coming soon . o gosh trails is coming soon T.T .. help me ~!! ..

EXAM OVER !!

hey People , IM BACK !! .. sorry for not updating my blog was having my exams .. my gosh it was i don't know how to describe it la .. cause i thank God for exam and now im feeling like the test was realy hard , and it was realy dreadful , and i really don't want to know my result T.T .. MY MATHS WAS LIKE .. HELP ME !! ( espacially maths 2 ) eventhough i did so much on maths 1 ( er the 1st 6 chapters la ) but it is still not enough la T.T .. gosh !! this is depressing .. i never felt so dissapointed over myself until the maths paper 2 exam , i it was really terrible man i was like NOOOOOoooo !! .. and trails is like 3months away . o gosh .. i don't know how would it turn out man T.T .

anyway , i got a lot to post la .. it was all on my head at first but now is gone .. thanks to maths ( integration @@ ) .. so erm what i would like to say is .. o this is important k , for those who feel down or feel that you are lost ~~ i just want to say that . Whatever you are facing , God see's it , let it be depression , lonelyness , sadness , commiting sucidal , he see it and he is working his way through it . and you definately know taht God is always with you , his HOLY SPIRIT WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU =) .. so if you are feeling down , sad , or anything , God sees it and he is moving . Sometimes , God gave us challanges , to build us up , to make us stronger , and to let us know that we have potential , we are not weak . God gave us the strength to do anything , he never give us timidity but he gave us love , strength and self disciplin ( it is all written in the bible =) ) .. so don't ever give up whatever you are doing , do it for God and with all your heart and you will see results =) ..

OUR FUN !!

heY everyone , sorry now a days seldom blog liaoz and seldom online ~~ kinda buzy though .. anyway today is the day where i kinda officially meet my juniours !! WUHOO i mean the lower 6 la xP .. meet from bu3 too =) .. anyway we did all kinds of torturing to them but i really hope they had fun .. lets see , they had to use thier mouth to pick up a sweet there is burried underneath with a pile of flour , pole dancing ( best ! ) , act like ah gua , wash our cars wahahahah but i don't have car la ehe Julian , Pk , Maddie , Yings and MR TAN was really satisfied with thier car it was so clean man !! and it sparkled under the glaring sun and and right is so shinyy !!! gosh , thank you Lower 6's students =) .. o and J.T make them do something and thier quote is FORM 6 ROCKS !! bdw , form 6 do ROCKS !! those who are interested , trust me you will never forget your form 6 life, is so full of fun la ! ! the whole bunch of us in upper 6 is like laughing non stop in class , to the left , to the right and the centre of every corner , you will see us laughing xP .. but the STUDIES IS KILLING !! we got like 18 CHAPTERS FOR BIO , 12 chapters for CHEMI , 10 chapters for maths ( i think ) , all coming out for mid term T.T .. gosh you know what , i totoally forget how to solve my lower 6 chemistry SOBZ MAN !! tell you a this year mid term SURELY DIE !! gosh !! ..

so anyway , the lower 6 gotta do a sexy post with Yings car too haha so cute la !! and some really good in posing xP .. o the ah gua part is seriously funny lolz .. espacially when the guyz act like ah gua wuhooooo !! lower 6 i hope you all will enjoy form 6 life .. trust me , you won't regret *WINK WINK .. well of us upper 6 never regret to the decision we make to come to form 6 !! .. WE GONNA HAVE A LOT OF FUN .. MUAHHAHAHAHA ~~~ ..

today is my 2nd Aunty birthday , i usually call her " Gee Yi " .. she is as beautiful as a May flower =) , she cooks great food , she is very caring , loving , she is realy good in baking man !! one day after my stpm , im gonna stay over her house and learn how to bake wuhooo !! since i have allt he time i have ! o and i wannt to travel overseas too xP YAY MAN !! .. k anyway i just want to wiSH HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEE YI !! .. we love you =) .. can't wait to taste more cakes that is on the menu that is baked by her ~~ seriously you all should try !! o and i pack some to school and everyone loved the cake seh bake !! who nak beli , bagi numbor , i tolong you buat order lolz .. ( just kidding ) ..

so far, this few days been really exhausted , ive been falling asleep at home you know ?? is like i was reading chemistry or doing revision exercise .. 45 min later .. phew boom i fall asleep without myself noticing ?? scary right .. o and don't worry people i no more waking up at odd hours liaoz haha .. must be really tired zZzzzZz ~~

guess i better head to my books now , gotta take out my contact lense too cause just now went out to have dinenr with my relatives gosh i enjoyed the craB so much !! o and the orange is so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet !! .. anyway , all the best to whorever taking exam this month !! GAMBATE ! jia you ! you can do it !! wuhoooo trust and believe in your abilities and your capabilities xP ..

once again ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST AUNTY , GEE YI !!

May

in this dreamy head of mine May reminds me of a flower name . It resembles beauty , sweet embrance with sweet scented smell . But in reality May goes like my chemistry tuision teacher , Miss Lee .. always say .. its May already you all got 6 more months to trials and all of us will go T.T .. whenever i hear the month or word may it now reminds me of 6 months T.T .. ahhhh 6 more months to trails , 8 more months to STPM .. really go T.T man sobz sobz . anyway .. no point sobbing all over it . we must take ACTION ! like S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G .. im gonna be a studyholic this month till STPM er i think ..

actually hor ,i got a lot of things to blog again la !! like last thursday i went to genting !! and had home made jap food O ME GOSH !! IS SO NICE LA !! the chaiwanmushi ( sorry , i dn't know how to speel ) but anyway .. taht dish , is the best dish among all . and you know the pucuk ?? Obasan wrap the pucuk with the jap sticky rice and it taste so good !! compare to sushi king and pasta zanmai that dish right is so tender and soft and aahhh i so loved it !! its better then
che cheong fan too !! .. then there is salad .. they call it the pumpkin egg salad , it taste like egg salad but it is really good !! .. being at genting is like having food merathon .. my uncle bought ROJAK .. the famous rojak from subang jaya .. but i skept that so i don' t know how it taste like la =( but i know it was good la cause everyone wallap the whole thing he boughta lot actually if im not mistaken la 8 packs man !! how to finish ?? i rather have cendol .. wuhooooo !! .. anyway , then there is roti canai for supper at night.. i skept that too cause i really really enjoy the jap food tilli want to have that as my last meal of the day . so i said no to rojak and no to the famous roti canai at genting .. well that roti canai at genting is better then kl that is what my dad say espacially the curry fish head .. waliau eh , really food merathon man ! .. Obasan enjoyed her meal thought can see that she really love curry =) ..


Went back on Saturday morning , then straight away went for bio tuision .. after bio tuision we were suppose to go for P.A tuision but we decided to go on friday , cause it doesn't clashes with our bio and we will really feel tired cause 3 TUISION IN A ROW CAN KILL YOU !! .. 1st bio , 2nd Pa , 3rd Chemi .. waliau eh .. tak boleh la after bio alraedy feel tired so we just went there to get the schedule and when we were walking back we saw mouchi .. so we had that too !! its nice =) .. then went back get ready for chemi tuision .. i didn't exactly felt tired during chemi tuision instead i was really concentrating on what teacher is teaching espacially on Organic Chemistry .. o me gosh i better back up on my Organic Chemi ~~ Mr Lau haven't thought yet though but i prefer sticking to Miss Lee notes !! she ROCKS !! .. then er got back .. have Bak Kut Teh for d
inner =) so long didn't have bak kut teh liaoz .. Obasan joined us too .. togather with Ayi Lucy , Gee Yi and Yvette xP .. Daisy couldn't make it cause she is not feeling well T.T .. so after bak kut teh we head back and next day was church .

Sunday , o me gosh i love SUNDAY LA !!! sunday was the bomb !! after church, got study group and we really really studied and and i still remember this ( COUNTER CURRENT MULTIPLIER indian ascent by Julian & PK ) .. poor Julian only had 3 hours of sleep lolz .. and we had coffeeeeee too !! home made brew coffee by ALEX CHIA YONG CHING that is MY DADDY ! .. so he made for us coffee .. then around 5.30 ask my parents permisiion to let me out to pasar malam with Pk and Julian and they say OK ! .. and i was thrilled and went to get ready .. so we got at the pasar malam i had my ampam , pk had er i hitnk is fried sweet potato
balls and Julian had fried chicken . gosh SUNDAY WAS FUN LA !! i always loving hanging out with them !! they bring colour to my life .. and not odour k is coulour !! .. i mean colour =) .. yea COLOUR !! not ODOUR .. lolz COLOUR hehe xP .. o and JOY TOO !!

then comes monday , the dreadful assembly .. T.T .. the best part was TENNIS !! it was a good training session , althought the sun was glaring but everyone had fun =) but i missed the best part T.T oo after school went of with Julian and Pik Kei to big book shop i enver know it existed until Pk and Julian brought me there .. i had seremban siew pau for lunch xP and they had KFC hehe xD .. then after tennis , did Krebs cycle then tidur sekejap mana tau it was 7.30 then rush to chemi tuision T.T ..

oo who is this Obasan that ive been mentioning? her real name is Tomiko .. she is from Japan my siblings , cousins and all call her Obasan means Aunty =) .. hehe xP ..

P.S sorry if is too long .. i just type whatever comes in my mind ... sorry no pics too cause on saturday it self my battrey died off T.T ..