Romantic Much ?

I am pretty much a romantic classic !! =)) My mind can wonder just about anything that has it's magical moments . I especially love when i see lighted candles , it just inspired me somehow or another , I love taking walks around the beaches , I love starring at the sky during day and night and just observe how Beautiful this world is , I love receiving flowers , receiving love letters but i don't really quite like receiving chocolates , i have never seen a sun rise before but i have seen a moon rise and i tell you it was MAGICAL !! it just happened once in a life time. I love seeing meteor showers ( which i never seen it before but i would love too ) , i would love to go picnic like the classic old film , i love laying on the grass and feel the fresh air and pretty and colourful flowers just by my side , i love reading love novels , and i love drawing hearts instead of stars . . i wonder why ~~

& i ESPECIALLY LOVEEEEEEE WEDDINGS !! i know this sounds so 8-10 years old girl like but i find weddings beautiful and magical and i mean you only get to have it once in your life time , i used to have a collection of wedding dresses images from the internet and wedding flowers and wedding themes. I just loveeee seeing them .

What i meant by magical moments is , it just happens spontaneously out of your expectation and you feel happy and blissful just seeing all this with your own eyes .

Comparing ?

There was a saying goes ,

never compare yourself with others because it will only limit your capability . Thi s is soo TRUE !! i mean , i believe everyone has their own talents and gifts . Each of us are all made beautiful and unique by God.

But you know what ?? i'm not sure what am i capable off . But i do know that i am a strong person , despite all the hardships i went through secondary . I didn't really remember back then what happened , until my sister mention it . Unfortunately , there was an ANTI Grace account on friendster back then and they were 200++ people likes !! i'm like yes a ?? then my sister was like you really can't remember ?? I'm like yea hor , and i also remember back then , everyone look at me disgusted . I had a really really bad memories during secondary school. People backstabbed me , hated me , look at me in a disgusted way , and some of them look down on me.

But you know what ? I didn't even commit sucide despite all this secondary drama , i didn't even cut my wrist or went under depression. Surprisingly right?? Even till now i can't really recall what happened back then but i knew it happened. I just couldn't remember how i felt back then , when i try to recall , my mind was like BLANK !! Why is it BLANK? i guess i have already move on , i didn't even tear or felt anything when my sister help me recall. Weird right?? I really Thank God for saving me from all this . I even got insulted back then. I really Thank God for giving me His strength and perseverance , i don't feel any hatred , i don't feel any pain and i don't feel any depression. It's weird . I am really a strong person to have overcome all this.

No matter what obstacles came on my way , i manage to conquer it. Eventhough i may not be the smart person in class that scored lots of A's , that get top in class and in every subject . But i do know , when i fail , i never give up . I will continue to try and try and try till i get it right. I may fail many times , but i have learn to stand back up again. I really Thank God for His strength that He build in me all this years. I may look weak , soft and gentle but deep down i know im strong and do you know i can carry heavy stuff?? stuff that normally guys carry ?? I carried my more then 8kg of luggage up a flight of stairs , and i can handle it !!

*winks

No !!

I am not going to say Yes to anything anymore !! I don't want to lie as a favor , i feel so uncomfortable about it . Even skipping classes for me is a big problem . . asking me to lie for you or do something that beyond my limit , i just can't .

Pretending to be nice to you when you have hurt someone , No !! I just can't !! . . and I'm not sorry about it because i know I'm doing the right thing !

21st

Hey people !! i have officially turned 21 !! Lolz i have been waiting for this day and this moment to come !! you know what is the best part ?? i turned 21 on 21st October !! i thought of that sentence last month and can't wait for the month of October !! i was always looking forward to my 16, 18 and 21 Birthday !! Lolz especially 21 !! maybe because its my lucky number or something , and like i say i turn 21 on 21st October !! Lolz !! . . I would say My 21th Birthday was a memorable , awesome and joyous celebration . Where all my closed friends came to celebrate with my family together ! =) . . I'm really really glad that my Best Friend Esther could make it !! it's been so long since we last met and it means a lot to me that she came !! Leck came too ! glad he came =) and my sweated bananas xD . .

First Birthday Cake

Loved Ones

Esther and I

Celebrated at working place toO !! All Thanks to Sue Ann for that day !! She purposely went all over old klang road just to get me a blueberry cake !! Awww and i received a card from my friends at my working place too ! =)

Blueberry Cake !! Love it !!

:: Sue Ann and I ::

On the day of my Birthday it was raining heavily the

whole day and night , so my friends and i were wearing flip flops and using an umbrella !! Lolz come to think of it , i never experience rain on my birthday before , this is the first ! and i felt Showers of Blessings , although can't play with candle and light up the whole park , but hey , we were dancing and skipping under the rain ! Lolz , it was kinda fun , and was posing with umbrellas and flip flops .I received an Awesome card too !! I love receiving cards and letters !! especially Handmade cards !! but too bad i couldn't receive from one of

my close friend . Hope he is doing alright now . My mum was the Best !! She made me spaghetti ! I seriously LOVEEEEEEE my mum Cooking !!She is just the Best mum that i could ever had !! and same goes for my Dad !! My family all helped one another to clean up the house from 7.30am till 12am just for my Birthday , well i helped around too la .. but im really Thankful and Greatful to have such a wonderful and loving family ! although at times , my sister and i can really quarrel and stuff but i still do Love her !but at times she really gets on my nerves especially whenit comes to house work .

Now that im officially 21 , i want to make some changes in my life !! i think im much more determined to make a list of resolution then making it on n

ew year lolz ! . .

*Cheers !

21 !! *Winks

Eve of Merdeka

It's 11.29am in the morning ~~ im suppose to study i know ~ but someone please MOTIVATE me !! ok never mind i should learn to try to motivate myself . Anyway , its eve of merdeka , im just at home ~~ i actually wanted to go OU !! but my parents rather want to stay back at home and relax , well my dad and my bro's are washing cars , my mum is relaxing watching tv , my sister , i think she is resting or sleeping or so and me ?? BLOGGING ! .. i know its been a while since i last blog about almost everything ~~ well its good to be back ! someway or another haha !! ..

It's because of this Blog that i recall back what kind of person i was and how did i change throughout the past 3 years and where did i went , where did i go , what happened between that past 3 years . Truthfully speaking , without looking through this blog , i seriously don't remember what happened back in the past . I know i have gotten there , been there and stuff but i don't remember the exact details of what happened that day , or what did someone say or what was i feeling ~~ its weird ~~ . when i look back , im like eh ?? that happened meh?? .. so weird one , i don't remember .. haha .. its like part of my past been blanked out ~~

anyway , im currently listening to acoustic musics , Thanks to Melody !! i kinda grow found of acoustic guitar songs , those songs with just guitar playing .. im currently listening to one now ! Boy avenue !! Got it from PK last night ~~ Yesterday , pk dropped by and we had fun in my own baby blue cozy room hehe and we went to the studio ! there were so many equipment and stuff its really cool !! never been to a studio before !! after that off to snowflakes haha tried the sesame sensation ~~ NICE !! peanut shaving ice and black sesame instead of taro balls !! i think before i head back to kampar , i will be having lots of snow flakes hahaha ~~

anyway , back to work :D .. JIA YOU GRACIE !!

Fall in Love

When i look back through my past . i forgotten how is it like right now to fall in love ~~ and right when we fall in love right ?? how do we know if he or she is the right one ?? I mean does Love really conquer everything ?? and What's Love ?? Sad to say , these days , youngsters or the generation now used LOVE so easily , i find it very hard to trust someone or feel insecure , who says I love you , i can never live without you or I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU !! .

i mean , come on , when you say Love ? do they really know what they are saying ?? will that person be there for you when you need them to be ?? or be your shoulder to lean on . . and you know the word , i can never live without you?? i find it really ridicolous at some point . I mean , of course we still have to go on with life right ?? and the only person that we can't live without i believe is JESUS !! . Without God , we are nothing !! and the phrase , i would do anything for you ?? i find it hard to believe or i will wait for you ?? Words doesn't mean a thing if your actions doesn't show it !! . .

I used to think all this phrase were sweet ~~ but right now when i come to my senses , can a guy or a girl do anything for him or her ?? is there such thing as that ?? if the girl ask the guy to catch a grenade , take a bullet for her just like the song grenade by bruno mars , will the guy do that ?? It's so hard to believe or trust people's word these days . At times when i hear this phrase , or when a guy say i would do anything for you , my heart just felt insecure instantly . But if a friend says , Grace , i would be there for you no matter what or you will always have my back or i will be your shoulder to lean on . I felt at ease and i know that person can be trusted .

I used to think , when a guy holds a girl hands it's like he is there to protect her no matter what , her life is kinda somehow entrusted upon him or something like that and most importantly is Trust , the girl and the guy trust each other that whenever any of them fall , he or she will be there to support , to give encouragement and to bring either back to the right track . I still do think that when i see couples hold hands . I know its weird , but i kinda like seeing that kinda view , especially when both parties are happy with one another , longing to be with one another or something like that ~

It's weird , when they say Love at first sight too ! i mean how you know you love that person when you just saw that person the first time ?? ~~ o well ~~

Photos

When i look back in my younger days
photo ~~ im like WOAH !! was that me?? why that girl look so pretty one ~~ not to say i perasan or what ola .. but seroiusly im like Woah !! that doesn't look like me ~ cause during my younger days , i used to take time to choose what clothes to wear , what accessories to wear , what shoes to wear . . all in all i think i took about 35 minutes to get ready ~~ seroiusly haha !! . . and my parents were like QUICKLY LA !!!

and i will be help me choose what shoes to wear , or what heels to wear hahahahah !! o gosh , right now is much much different , i normally we

ar big clothes and short pants out , i don't care much of my appearance ~~ i mean who would want to look at me ?? . . and i will just grab a simple shirt or a pants , seldom wear skirt or dresses. . i used to wear skirts and dresses back then and heels. Now is more like short pants and a normal t-shirt .

No longer choosing for accessories and stuff , heels also ada satu sahaja ~~

It's weird ~~ how i used to be so vain and i forgott

en all about it until i look through all my old photos ~~ was taking a lot of photos of myself and right now i don't really like taking photos of myself. . more like taking beautiful sceneries or

friends or my family ~~. . Time really passed by soooooooooo fast , now is already year 2011 . . Looking back through my whole high school life , i know i love to dress up and look good . . now during uni life , i didn't really care much about how i look ~~ i think people adress me as Pasar Pagi girl , since im a morning person .. sometimes i l

ook at myself in the mirror im like , yea im normal ~~ . . lolz

o well , that is the past ~~ . .

When i was young ~~

and this is Now ~